Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hannah is better. Jon is better. Gideon has a job interview today for a potentially great job, Esther made the Dean's List, Sopheak, in spite of the very limited number of visitor visas granted to young single Cambodians, GOT HERS and my heart is full of praise to our God for these wonderful blessings. My heart is also very heavy for sweet Baby Secret, who still lies waiting for -he-doesn't -know-what, or who, but he lays in his bed in the special needs baby room at his orphanage, while I am still praying fervently here that we will commit, soon, very soon, send our paperwork off, and bring him home. As Gideon said now 5 days ago and Charlie agreed, "Time is NOT Secret's friend." So I continue to pray over Secret, adoption, his ever-increasing need for surgery. My heart is full of love and compassion for Secret, and I keep hearing a message in my heart about him, the he will teach people about love: he will teach them a new way to love that they may not learn in any other way. One of the speakers at the Orphan Summit made the comment that we show the love of Jesus most when we love those who have absolutely nothing to give back. That resonated with me so deeply and thoroughly, because the "Secret and love -teaching" was already firmly in my heart when those Summit words were said. Those same words ministered to my two friends as well, about Secret. We talked about him and the whole adoption situation at great length, we prayed over Secret and things in the future: fervently. The prayer room at Irving Bible Church is an amzingly peaceful room with an open invitation to write ones prayer requests on the walls of the room, to write the names of those being prayed for on stones...and to lay those stones at the foot of a large cross at one end of the room. Does an experienced, older family , adopting a very special needs baby make "sense" in a 401k, surely-its-going-to -be- a downward-spiraling-economy focused.....ya GOTTA have retirement and lots of spare time- oriented society?? Maybe not so much. Does God do what makes sense to the world or does God make sense where He chooses? Does God teach us to "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding In all your ways acknowledge HIM and HE will direct your path. Do not be wise in your own eyes..............Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due WHEN IT IS IN THE POWER OF YOUR HAND TO DO SO....................." ?? Yes He does. So , my stone with Secret's name on it is laid at the foot of that cross, his life is in the hands of the Father, and my prayer continues to be that Secret comes home to his family. Could it be that this is NOT us? It could be, but I believe God brought us to him, and no one else, not yet, not in all his months of being listed as a waiting child, talked about by various internet groups, not by other families who came and adopted their other children. We have seen him, have approval for the right number of children, his needs are listed in our home study as those our social worker felt we could handle. With Isaiah, I am hearing the voice of he Lord saying "Who will I send? Who will go for us?".... and Iam saying "Here (we are) am I. Send (us) me!!!!!!!!!!!!!'" IF Secret has the mission I have seen in my spirit, I don't want him to miss a day ........I don't want to miss another day of ministering to him! I pray that today will be the day of decision to move forward.