Monday, March 19, 2012

Updates to The New Adoption Journey

And what a journey it has been!!! Charlie and I flew to New Jersey to meet Naomi and her respite care family  over my birthday weekend (Feb 19) and had a really good  visit.  We began our visit and getting to know each other  by hanging out at the wonderful respite families' home for brunch and then TO THE POOL at our hotel!  Naomi was on a long weekend pass from her Treatment Center. What a great relaxing way to begin some interacting and bonding a trip to a pool can be! Along with that family and their many children Charlie, Naomi and I swam, soaked, jumped, pulled each other around in the water...it was a super time! Back at the house we cooked dinner togther , and just hung out.  Our second day was more of the same but we took Naomi with us for some alone time and then after  a spaghetti and meatballs birthday dinner complete with cake and singing too,  she came and spent the night with us.  In the "Never a Dull Moment category:  the night was not without interruptions. Naomi woke up  about 1 AM with a problem and came to sleep with us in our bed, about the same time that son Gideon called from home  reporting that my mom was going by ambulance to ER from the nursing home for a probably/potential  broken hip. Naomi's tossing and turning and her lovely beaded corn rows clacking  away, along with Gideon's  6 hours of updates made for a total loss in the sleep department  (for me, not Charlie or Naomi) but we ate breakfast at a fun classic-stereotypical  all American looking  place  appropriately named  the "All American Diner"  Balance was restored with eggs, bacon, toast and coffee!! My mom's hip has an issue but it isn't broken for which we praise God and our visit with Naomi went very well, we all thought. Fast-forward some time, some legal mumbo jumbo, booking plane tickets and planning The Trip to bring Naomi home...not so fast. The facility where Naomi is receiving some psychological help for events and issues gone by, intervened in the transfer of custody from adoptive family to us by involving  State social workers. We thought our well-worded ,notarized guardianship filed by the adoptive family would suffice for a discharge, but NO. So, even though I  had booked flights for Naomi and Rachel to come with me   and even though I had booked a flight for Naomi2  as well, so the new sisters could travel togther,  she did not come home with us. Instead, we had 2 one -hour supervised on- site visits with Naomi2 in the facility under the (all I am going to say is "watchful eye") supervision  of the case worker. VERY stilted, very unnatural for 3 'tween girls and me ,but that's how it was.  On Day 2,  I  had a 2 hour meeting with 2 State CPS high ups ( in NJ they call it DYFS) the on site case worker, the respite parents and me .(We came for this meeting,  Naomi2 didn't know we were there, Naomi1 and Rachel sat at a desk upstairs in  the facility coloring like little girls while they waited for me. ) We had to leave the facility and come back two hours later for our 1 hour visit with Naomi2............. Wonderful Thai lunch for us and we brought back a pizza for Naomi2... I had really prayed with the girls that God would set a watch on my mouth but give me the necessary boldness as well, and God kept me right under His wing!  Upshot is, instead of " long slow transition in NJ,  "  as suggested  repeatedly by the facility case worker, with our newly court filed guardianship docs and a treatment facility to enroll Naomi2 into in OKLAHOMA, it is The Plan to get Naomi2 here in a matter of  weeks and transition her out of there to HOME!! Please pray with us that all the pieces come together with as little interruption as possible?
It would have been fun to have all three girls with me for the whole time , especially when we decided to venture into New York City to see the sites but that had to go into the "not to happen" file. The two girls and I had a lot of fun and got lots of great photos of our adventure.Rachel is a really good photographer, even in a moving vehicle. Photos to come!!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Adding a new ingredient to Smithsoup!

yes you read that right!! We are adopting a lovely 9 year old girl from Liberia! Sadly she has been in the USA for several years already, adopted into a situation which is no longer her situation. I love how God works and how He "...sets the solitary into families" and I love how God connected a sweet respite family and us...who were nothing like what the respite family thought they were helping to find for this princess ...but God...the "ideal families" small, east coast, etc, etc....just didn't express that they had what a very damaged but healing little girl needed in a real forever family and the respite family kept coming back to the great big mid western farm family, and eyes, WE were the one family of a number, who seemed to really fit. We began to talk on the phone and to email, asking questions back and forth, sharing info, experience , our passion for children and our shared concern for THIS child."....the peace was palpable between us and when I spoke to my husband about this child his response was a quick, "I have no issues with this, what do we need to do and what do our other kids think?" WELL!!!!! I had not mentioned her to them until I had gathered information to share with him!!! We began to tell the kids about Naomi and her history in Liberia, and compassion moved over them all. Charlie and I are flying over my birthday weekend to visit with Naomi and the respite family...we are all going to stay at a hotel with a nice pool so we can spend time with her in a very neutral setting, and one in which Naomi will have a good time . Sunday we spend a good piece of time on Skype meeting Naomi and introducing her to family members. WHAT FUN THAT WAS!!! She was sweet and spunky, fun, and inquisitive . She loved that we already had a baby from her country, and asked if we had BEEN to her country (the original adoptive family had not )When I told her that I had been there twice but dad had been there with me one time, she was even more excited. She was quite animated as she asked us questions and responded to our Answers. Her closing comments and questions? " Can I come live with you. Will you be my forever mom and dad!? I want to come live with you forever!" OH MY HEART!! Please pray with all of us as we prepare to season our Soup with a very new seasoning? Naomi has been hurt before, physically and emotionally, she has needed a lot of therapy and treatment for the last year when she ceased to be able to carry the load of hurt inflicted upon her. She has done very well and we anticipate continuing some of her treatment but much of it is very nearly completed. We want her to know she is loved and safe and secure and wanted; we need to be readied for a child who has a history similar in many ways to several of our other older-adopted children but in many ways so so so much mor severe. Our hearts while tender for Naomi still ache for Junior a d Diamoh who seem to be God's choice as Children of Our Hearts, but Not of Our Home. We did a lot of talking about how it seemed to feel we were walking away from these two we've waited for and prayed over for 4 years. NO! We are not and when(if) that door should reopen, YES!! We will go in a heartbeat and bring them home! For now we see a closed door on one side of the hallway and a new door standing wide open on the other.We were not expecting this "open door" but after the last adoption opportunity which we didn't pursue we have talked and prayed a lot about REALLY being available and obedient as God całls us to action. Exciting and challenging days lie ahead for Smithsoup in 2012! AND OH, turns out that I AM going to be a Great Gi-Gi this year! How many moms can make the claim that they will be a new mom again, a Gi-Gi and GREAT Gi-Gi in the same year? it doesn't get much more blessed than that!!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Earthquakes of the physical and emotional variety

At about 10:53 tonight, right after we all finished watching our Oklahoma State University Cowboys football team win their 8th straight game this season, Undefeated this year, I had just sent my football fan kiddos to get ready for bed when IT  rocked the house and everyone came back into the living room to ask "WAS THAT an E A R T H Q U A K E  ??""  The USGS initially called it a 5.2 magnitude but quickly upgraded to 5.6. We didn't have any damage, but it was a very different kind of excitement, even after that close adn important football game. We'd been cheering for our Other home state team LSU Tigers as well and minutes , maybe A  minute before the Cowboys won, the Tigers won their game as well. BIG EXCITEMENT !!!!!
The tremor  honestly rivaled and maybe was dwarfed by  the events of the last month in our household. We were made aware of a baby in Missouri who has the same diagnosis as Daniel, whose very young  single mom had  placed him for adoption. Several people from several very different areas of my life contacted me , unbeknownst to each other,  about this baby and  eventually,  we  were asked if we might BE this   baby' s adoptive family and if we'd consider adopting him. We submitted a profile letter for the birth mother to review  and  talked as a family about having another Hydranencephalic baby in our family. This little guy is more severely affected than Daniel but just as loved by our Heavenly Father as any of the rest of us. The mother chose between the two families the agency presented to her  after  they had sorted through several dozen family requests and profiles. We had re-started out home study process in light of this and keeping it up dated for Liberia...............  the mother chose the Other Family. We had talked about how God presents us with things sometimes and asks us if we are willing to trust Him with the "unusual"  or unexpected. Charlie explained to the children that we need to be  ready and willing to obey God when He asks something of us. When we shared with the children that we had not been chosen, Charlie told them, "sometimes God just asks IF we are willing, but doesn't always require the action...kind of like Abraham preparing to sacrifice his son Isaac. We do have to always be ready to obey God."  FAST FORWARD  one week exactly. The agency called me back to say that the Other Family had backed out and did we want to be considered still/ again. Charlie and I talked, we knew that this baby was very likely to remain hospitalized for a long time, is likely to not live very long. A lot of "Are you up to caring for two special needs babies?" ensued, and we agreed to move forward and start the process. In the midst of  all our annual eye doctor exams and dental check-ups  ( and two children having oral surgery and wisom teeth extracted  AND an emergency oral surgery for a stuck tooth too) we got all the required doctor visits done and documented for an updated home study, Charlie and I got our finger prints  done and mailed off with bakground check forms. He encouraged me to press OSBI for an expedited processing for the sake of the babie's life. Accomplishing all this, we were asked when we'd come to visit Baby "V" in NE Missouri.This past weekend was decided upon..  Time off work requested and granted, Hotel reservations  made, appointments were set up with the medical staff and the attorney handling the adoption for us/the agency.    On Wedensday night after prayer meeting at church as we drove home Charlie and I spoke to the children about the baby's NEW NAME. Several preferences were voiced... Jacob, Matthew, Levi, Benjamin, Gabriel. Naomi liked Michael: as in Michael W. Smith. Rachel liked Jacob. Isaac and Noah said we knew too many Jacobs already. I suggested Levi which most everyone liked, including Charlie, who has always liked that name. Isaac sugested  Gabriel because he liked that Gabriel was an angel and he liked the stories. Gabriel Levi got the most support and "YAH!!!"s   So, when we got up super early on Friday morning to drive to Missouri , we were adopting another special needs baby. whom we were goingto call Gabriel Levi, but NOT  "Gabe."   We were going to have another son. As we drove, shortly after leaving the house,  Charlie said  to me  "This adoption doesn't feel  right to me" and he  that didn't want to go forward any more , or even go to Missouri at all,  but he kept driving. I was in shock, but for three hours as he kept driving he said the same thing. "It doesn't feel right to me'". 
The attorney called as we were  talking and crossing into Missouri to ask if we'd decided on the baby's new name so that he could put it in the paperwork. Charlie told me to tell him that we were backing out. Period.  He then had me call the agency case worker to tell her the same thing. In less than two minutes, the Plan Presented, the Request given and accepted,  all the hard work and planning and the  turning -around future of a  very challenged, sick baby were unraveled. What  I sensed and saw  as God presenting an experienced family with a child they understood the needs of, a child easily  nearby for sake of completing the process, God blessing us with a child to love and care for who was not going to grow up, or need much more than love,   God saying , " I need you to do THIS"..............was now suddenly......stopped.  Charlie had told me that when the Other Family backed out he had had a feeling that was going to happen and he was already prepared for that . Strangely I had felt that way too, and so had the case worker............... I was not prepared for "stop".
We aren't talking about it at all. Charlie says it's over and he is at peace with it.
It is my deepest soul -felt prayer that the baby, "V". Gabriel Levi, does get his forever family, soon,  because their "forever " together is not doing to be be very long and because of us, they maybe have a month less.  It is my prayer that they are in unity of purpose and plan as they go forward with V's adoption, that the enemy not confuse anyone's thinking or cause anyone to "lean on thier own understanding".  I am praying for peace, and understanding, words to share with our children about how "Being ready to obey " and "Being willing to say 'yes' to God" fit this story while showing the respect for their Daddy that I need to show and  that they need to be  living as well. I am praying for healing and communication. I am praying against hurt, anger, confusion and a root of bitterness which I do NOT want to allow to take root and grow into REAL bitterness. I am praying for clarity for everyone in this chapter of our lives. IF I missed God, I want to know where I started to miss and how I didn't see that.  I want to understand what Charlie sensed and felt so strongly to act against.  If I DIDN'T,  I pray that God will be asking us again soon to trust and obey Him in something else.   I am praying for CLARITY.
 It's National Adoption Awareness month, November , and tomorrow is Orphan Sunday in churches around the world. My heart is so tender for the many, many children in our world who so desperately need FAMILY; having to leave one behind with whom I'd already begun an attachment  and while still praying for our two in Liberia who seem to have less and less chance of ever coming home, my ORPHAN AWARENESS is at an all time high.  I am however rejoicing with several friends who have recently been matched with new adoptive children, very excited for several ladies I am mentoring who plan to adopt within the next few years. Not everyone one is called into adopting a large, and larger family    but it is my belief , my hope and my prayer that  MANY MORE families will begin looking afresh  at James 1:27 and asking God.  "WHO is WAITING FOR US?"  and then to  pursue and add to their families through the wonderful act of obedience and blessing which is adoption.
WHAT AN EARTHQUAKE of excitement on earth and in heaven if families would come forward for the millions of waiting orphans. We've been blessed 7 times so far to completion by adoption. Our "season"  is drawing to a close one of these days............Like with  Elijah and Elisha, my prayer is that we will be handing our "mantle" to others who may experience a DOUBLE PORTION of what we have been so richly blessed by God with!!!  I'm sad for my "right now"  but I am excited because I know that God is far from done!!!  Blessed be the name of the Lord!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Who delights over who with singing?

We will delight ourselves in the Lord (Ps. 37:4) 
to the degree we know he greatly delights in us (Zeph. 3:14-17).
I have been so blessed, encouraged and challenged by the teachings of pastor Scotty Smith of Christ Community Church in Franklin, Tennessee  He shared these two verses together in a little post his morning. I want to delight myself  today, and every day, to the degree to which I know HE delights in me. and He rejoices over me with gladness, quiets me with His love and rejoices over me with singing!! (New American Standard says " with "shouts of joy"... I like that too!)  
 Let's SING   SHOUT  BE GLAD and REJOICE  as we delight ourselves in our God Who is delighting over us!!!!

Sing, O daughter of Zion!

Shout, O Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
O daughter of Jerusalem!
15 The LORD has taken away your judgments,
He has cast out your enemy.
The King of Israel, the LORD, is in your midst;
You shall see[a] disaster no more.
16 In that day it shall be said to Jerusalem:
“ Do not fear;
Zion, let not your hands be weak.
17 The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”

Sunday, September 25, 2011

"At Your Name" by Phil Wickham




 Have Y'all heard this song yet?  I'm guessing "probably"  since I seem to be almost "always"  the "last to know" but I am being blessed every time I hear this new song.    You will need to disable  or mute my playlist at the very bottom of my page so you can play this song. When the song is availabel in a playlist form, I will include it there. The song is too new right now; the CD  RESPONSE from which this came, is not released yet.
Phil Wickham

At Your name


Mountains shake and crumble

At Your name

The oceans roar and tumble

At Your name

Angels will bow

The earth will rejoice

Your people cry out



Chorus

Lord of all the earth

We shout Your name, shout Your name

Filling up the skies

With endless praise, endless praise

Yahweh, Yahweh

We love to shout Your name, oh Lord



At Your name

The morning breaks

In Your glory

At Your name

Creation sings Your story

At Your name

Angels will bow

The earth will rejoice

Your people cry out



Chorus

Lord of all the earth

We shout Your name, shout Your name

Filling up the skies

With endless praise, endless praise

Yahweh, Yahweh

We love to shout Your name, oh Lord



There is no one like our God

We will praise you, praise you

There is no one like our God

We will sing, we will sing!!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Not a Great Gramma, but a new Gi-Gi, mom to a Drill Sgt and a motor cycle crash survivor

Where did the summer go that I have not posted anything since JULY!!! Somewhere between having the new air conditioning unit installed the 100+ days of over 100 degree temps, healing from that smashed toe, and daughter Esther giving birth last week to Riley Kay, life has been FULL!!!
Emily sadly, lost her baby, so the GREAT Gi-Gi title is on hold for a while. She is doing fine , and even though her mom, my daughter in law Diana was in ROME with my son who was on a two week break from his assignment in Afghanistan, other Gramma, Amy was able to be with Emily as were several of her aunts. Her military husband was not home at the time either. Life is never without speed bumps. How wonderful that God never leaves us alone or "unaccompanied' (as the military refers to how service members are separated from their families for a tour of duty)!
We wrapped up school in August, finally. In our home school students do not flunk; they repeat and re-work until the learning has occurred. Sometimes that makes for a long school year but there were a couple of our children who finished early. That option is also available.
AUGUST. SO HOT that our water bills were as costly as a typical electric bill and the electric bills were larger than the mortgage on our previous home! I'm thankful that we were comfortable and that we all agree to keeping the house to 84 when it's 114 outside! It is amazing how cool 84 feels when one has been out working in that 114+ weather! We all enjoyed our pool very much, and from it we had a wonderful view of the garden we worked so hard to prepare and so anticipated harvesting. Draught, even in the presence of $200 water bills was the victor in the fight to maintain a great garden this year. No corn, no peppers, no tomatoes, few squash, great crop of okra, interestingly enough, very few beans, almost no cucumbers. HOW did we raise as many cantaloupes and water melons as we did, I don't know except that the huge leaves and deep mulch underneath gave greater protection than I could have imagined. When I gave up on the corn patch, the goats were thrilled to have free access to the dry stalks. It was like "corn hay" I guess. They did an excellent job of clearing up for us!
I had the wonderful opportunity to go to son Caleb's Drill Sergeant School graduation later in August. We hadn't seen each other for a year and this occasion was a "HAVE TO attend", so plans were made. Drill Sergeants are a very small elite group of soldiers in the Army, the school is not large and there were 40 grads in Caleb's class. He will finish his assignment in Kentucky and head for Ft Leonard Wood to begin his new career in early October. We are so proud of him!! My departure was not without event, as Life would have it. As we prepared to leave the hotel for the airport so I could catch my 6 AM flight, a phone call rocked our world. The Sheriff  deputy on the other end was calling to let us know that Gideon had been in a motorcycle crash and had been life flighted to OKC from our town. DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER, I was praying and spiritually "flipping a coin" DO I GO on the plane or do I GO HOME? The deputy was able to contact the ER department who called me really very quickly to give me a status report. While Gideon was very seriously injured, his injuries were NOT life threatening. I barely made it onto  the plane; it felt rather like Ping the duck, being slapped on the back for being the last duck on the Wise Eyed Boat, but I made it!! We didn't get as much time together as we'd have liked but we had a special time. I got off the plane back in Tulsa, went home to hug all the children and have lunch with them, then Charlie and I loaded up to go get Gideon from the hospital in OKC. The doctors asked that I come to learn how to dress the puncture wound in Gideon's  abdomen and the road rash which covered 80% of his body, as well as  how to monitor the multiple stitches and staples. I honestly was not prepared for how my son was going to look. SO swollen, cut up and bruised. Literally his head was stitched and stapled back together! What I saw was GOD'S HAND of protection. Gideon should have been dead or totally in a vegetative state. He had no broken bones! A lot of internal injuries are still healing, including a brain bleed and concussion, the 1" puncture wound (probably caused by the clutch handle being snapped off and Gideon falling against the broken stump.) His knee will need surgery . My heart was overwhelmed with gratitude to God for sparing my son, and amazement at what ALL had happened as the result of one poorly planned late night motor cycle ride. Four weeks later Gideon is still staying at our house. He can't live by himself yet, is still in a lot of pain, and obviously can't work yet either. I see God working in his heart and causing him to address some things that have long needed addressing and if THIS is what it took, I am content. He and I had some pretty interesting private moments since he was unable to bathe for the first two weeks. It was Gideon and me, the shower chair we got for my stroke afflicted mom, the hand held shower and the only way I could give my 26 year old son some dignity in the situation: a large lap towel. I shed a tear when he thanked me for even thinking about his dignity in light of everything I had to do for him. I cry a different kind of tear as he and Daniel lie side by side in front of the TV : Daniel in his special horizontal chair and Gideon stretched out in the recliner. I have dubbed that TV zone as the "Neurological Unit" Gideon talks to Daniel and encourages him to cheer for the favored teams, trying to convince us all that Daniel is also a Dallas fan! I also hear frquently, "Hey D, whatcha think man?They gonna win this next game?" The things that touch a mamma heart!
And then there is Esther! She gave birth to our precious grand baby the day before my husband's birthday and who weighed 9 pounds 15 ounces!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is beautiful and we are totally in love! Esther and Casey were so precious to watch as she labored and then together with their brand new baby girl. I was honored to be part of the day. It was not the way we all anticipated the day to go, but Esther and Riley are fine. I could editorialize about meddling medical interventions but that is another post!
Sweet grand baby Charlie turned 2 the day after my husband's birthday so the three of them will always celebrate together! September is the month for Grandchildren's birthday for sure! Joshua's 2 (Emily and her brother Ethan) Caleb's son, Jon (Hannah)'s daughter Mady for a total of SIX September Grandbabies!!!!
We've started piano lessons and a new Alpha and Omega curriculum school year with several more computers so that the day moves much more smoothly. Our summer temps have given way to cool 80's and our new AC unit is already on hiatus. Let the wood chopping and stacking begin!!!!

Meet Miss Riley Kay!!





Esther and 1 hour old Riley Kay

A proud Gi-Gi and Riley in the blanket I finished as Riley was being born!!

Four generations of Keyser-Smith women!

Yes he did! Got right up to his cake and licked that whipped cream right off!

Cousin meets Cousin




Leah, Esther with Riley, Casey, Rachel, Isaiah in front of Linda, Isaac behind Linda,Charlie holding Daniel,Naomi,Jael, Gideon ,Jon holding Charlie, Mady and Hannah, Noah, Sopheak and Malachi


Caleb with some of his fellow Drill graduates

Drill Sergeant Caleb

Friday, July 29, 2011

Me: a Great Gramma... How Can I Pray For You?

I am going to be a GREAT  GRAMMA early next spring! Our grand daugher Emily was married recently to her Navy fiance  and this week they announced that she is due to have their first baby ! Since my  daughter in law  and  my son were both born when her mom and I were VERY young and Diana had Emily when she too was VERY YOUNG, I will be a VERY VERY YOUNG Great Gi-Gi. (Y'all know my age joke..."42 is a big enough number for an age so that's where I parked mine." I AM  of course 42....plus,  so saying I'm 42 is not untrue. If I said I was 57 THAT would be a lie. I am not there yet. ) My son will be 37 next week and Emily is almost 20. WE are ALL very young!  Emily told me that (and I took this to be a tribute to my dad  and tradition) Joshua will be called "Pop" like he called my dad. Diana said that she will be "Lolli". YES, that is how we roll. I guess the Family Crest will have a Tootise Pop on it!!
Youthful as I may feel, some of my parts are inconflict with this concept. Overusing my right hip while on crutches for a left knee problem trashed my hip joint and the X-rays  and my orthopedic doctor indicate that a Total Hip Replacement is in my future. He told me that I will know when I am ready , and they will schedule it accordingly. The prosthesis used for younger more active people is a bit different from those used for more sedentary or less active people. It's still the  opening up of my leg, the removal of my God-given  ball joint and sanding down of the hip socket, gluing in a plastic socket and skewering a new ball into the top of my thigh bone, putting me back together and teaching me how to use a hip that will be void of wear and eventually  of pain, but with some limitations that my painful ,worn out hip does not have. My painful, worn out hip is already limited since I lost full range of motion quite a while ago, I limp almost all of the time and include Motrin or Aleve as part of my daily diet. There is the option of hydrocortisone injections into my hip to give me a bit more time before The Big Event, and I am going to take advantage of that until later in fall.  I dont' want to be on a different floor of the hospital from Esther when she has Riley and I need to be ambualatory to help her for a while. A planned trip in August  is also not conducive to a walker and rehab three times a week. I know that I "knew"  this was going to be the diagnosis and prognosis was before I saw the orthopedic surgeon, he thought he "knew "too from my desciption of  of events and my time line. When he and his PA assessed my X-rays  they REALLY KNEW.   It's not nearly as radical as it used ot be even a few years ago. There is no  more in-patient stay for 2 weeks or in-patient rehab for  5-6 more  weeks. I will be hospitalized for maybe 4 whole days ( a Tuesday morning until some time on Friday) with  walking  and rehab starting on day 1 in the hospital. I will definitely be slowed down for a few months but I'm promised I can swim and walk the 5K lake path again  before too much longer.............depending of course on how seriously I apply myself to my rehab regeime.  God sustained me through the need for gall baldder surgery and through the need for vein stripping surgery and healed me up in remarkable time  from both of those ,so I am praying and trusting for a similar recovery. If you'll remember to pray with me as I prepare spiritually and physically for the procedure, I would be so very grateful!! Thanks in advance for your prayers! 
NOW,  please tell me ,  HOW CAN I PRAY FOR YOU????????????????

Monday, July 25, 2011

"Greater things are still to come, greater things are still to be done here!"

Praising God that we got some rain last night after so very  very long! The burn ban around here has even been so far-reaching as to prohibit welders from doing their work because of the spark-fire threat. Our governor has lifted several restrictions for truckers hauling hay to help the ranchers and farmers because so many are having to buy hay from less draught-sticken states like ours.  The land in Oklahoma is so parched and burned and dead, there is very little hay growing. there is very little "scruff" for lives tock to forage or graze. Buying hay  from out of state is expensive, but currently necessary. Gov. Fallin  is allowing wider loads with no additional fees for 60 days. Just that lifting of a weight/size load restriction will help  and we take our help where we can get it! This part of Oklahoma has  been 26 days straight with over 100 degree temperatures and 8 more  days predicted (upwards from 104...to an official 108)  so last night's rain, even though it was slight, was so welcomed!!
AND THEN.............. our IRS  Tax Advocate called me this morning to tell me that IRS has completed their review of our tax refund file (yes all 131 pages of it) and that they have apoprved our refund to be released in full! Just in time to make the  one PAID IN FULL payment on our AC unit, instead of the frist of potentially many, very large payments!
The stitches came out of my toe on Thursday. It is healing slowly but healing. The broken bone pieces will gradually heal themselves and I guess I will feel tingly sensations along the way. Weight bearing is still painful but so is the "pull up" effort I seem to default to  to NOT be weight bearing. I'm working hard to put weight on my foot so that the toe doesn't heal with a crooked upward tilt. The nailbed is "icky" looking but not infected and not so swollen either. I wore regular shoes to church yesterday around the bandage, much to the amusement of many! I am a "high-heels" kind of girl and that flat ortho boot  I wore for two weeks needed to be Linda-history .  I am thankful !
Several months back a friend recommended a book to our prayer group. I saw it at our bookstore and without doing much research, bought it. God had a plan for me to have that book for someone else entirely!  The book is Made to Crave  Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, not Food. by Lysa TerKeurst  who is the Proverbs 31 Ministry originator. The book is amazing if you are not familiar with it. Yes, her premise is learning to seek GOD  for our sufficeincy instead of  the craving for food, but she goes so much deeper...to whatever ones' personsal "lust of the flesh" might be. It is an  EXCELLENT book! I have a dear friend who shared with me recently a desire to totally submit the craving, (yes, "craving" was the word used!) for food and to give that once and for ALL to God and see God bring victory over it. WELL........ God put this friend's face right in the middle of my spiritual vision with a prompting to give the book to my friend. I did. Last night I got an excited phone call telling me that this WAS exactly what God had been speaking and the book was EXACTLY what was needed right now!
There are other things for which we are trusting God and praising him for as well, but these two things are "biggies" and I wanted to give God the praise before I did anything else!
As I was looking for a video of "God of This City" for Sunday worship,  I discovered how the song came to be written and that it was not Chris Tomlin who wrote it as I'd thoguht but a group named Bluetree from Dublin, Ireland. They wrote the song while on a mission trip to Thailand. While  in the midst of a "Red light " district, deep in a section of brothel and sex trade businesses, God moved on their hearts that HE had great things for that city..........when they returned to Dublin, God spoke to them about that city as well. Knowing that changed my whole perception of the song , which I already liked a lot! I loved being able to share that part of the story as we sang God of This City yesterday morning as part of our worship music time. God put this song together in my mind with "Holy is the Lord God Almighty," "How Great Thou Art," and "Shine Jesus Shine" God was stirring hearts and it wa a special time!!
Are you aware of  "THE RESPONSE",  A Call to Prayer for a Nation in Crisis ?  Gov Rick Perry has  called this a National  Solemn  Assembly and has rented the Reliant Center in Houston Texas as a central gathering place for all who would want to come there on August 6 to pray. Other churches are participating across the country simulataneously with the day of prayer and fasting in Houston which is slated for 10 AM-3 PM  A number of churches in our town are participating here and gathering at a large facility here. I would invite each of you and  challenge you to set this day aside in your churches, fellowships, Bible Study groups or Home Groups , Cell Groups. Our nation IS  in crisis for certain, on every level, but most of all in its spritual decline. I believe that God WANTS to heal our land, I believe that there ARE "greater things.... still to be done here" and I want to be a part of any effort, "organized'  or personal, to keep praying  "THY WILL BE DONE  ON EARTH AS IT  IS  IN HEAVEN.   Click here to find out more about                           The RESPONSE

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

July

Still no word from the IRS about the status of our tax return. The horror stories from other adoptive families keep coming and coming; I stop and pray that somehow they will get quick resolution and that we will get our return released as soon as the Tax Advocate  had indicated or sooner............ PLEASE LORD!!!
Today was the 21st day in Oklahoma with temperatures  over 100 degrees in a row. Absolutely incredible to be living through, I have to say. Several state governors have called for official Days of Prayer for rain. Our governor is among them. When I see these conditions around me  and read of the struggles in Africa of people who have it even worse, and who are dying from the heat , lack of rain and lack of food, I am so grateful for what we DO have, even in this heat wave . I am reminded to pray for others, and not to focus on ME. I/we  have it VERY easy compared to those who are truly suffering in the heat. Lord, are You coming soon?
I will see the orthopedic doctor  tomorrow to follow up on this shattered toe thing. The nail bed feels , well, dead. I "think" the nerves were crushed in the accident but  I am very aware of the sensations in my toe itself. Trustfully the bone pieces are calcifying their way back to each other in healing!!
Charlie, Gideon, Isaacand Isaiah went to Colorado for a long weekend of camping and fishing and mountain climbing. They got back way late last night after a wonderful 26th birthday trip for Gideon. They had a really great time together and made lots of wonderful memories. They tell me that in addition to camp sites there ARE  cabins to rent.............That would be MY  kind of camping, minus the snow, minus the fishing.  Nuff said???

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I love my friends!!!

What a special visit we had last Monday when my cyber-friend Susan  who  also  became my face-to-face friend  and her family got to come spend some time with us on their way to Arkansas! What an even more fun time we had today when they made time to come back and spend more time with us   on their way back to California!!!  Their son Zach had such fun riding horses with Naomi , who had just as much fun with his equine kindred spirit! After an almost "obligatory ' dip in the pool, Naomi and Zach were out to the pasture to catch Sugar and Lucky and saddle up! Kallie was still holding back, so swam a bit more and  watched movies with Leah, Rachel and my grand daughter Mady.  I fixed my oh-so-delicious and OH -SO-FAKE  chicken enchiladas as a casserole for dinner (another friend had used my exact recipe but instead of rolling tortillas with the chicken , etc mixture, she tore up the tortillas and layered all the ingredients in a casserole and it was REALLY GOOD too so I copied  her tonight) in two huge pans with Susan and Mike helping tear up tortillas and layer all the "glop" and cheese so we could bake it up. AND WHAT FUN that Kallieann loves guacamole as much as I do ! AS I put chips, salsa and guacamole out as a side dish, she was so excited!!! I got back from a few last minute errands  just after Susan and Mike, Zach and Kallieann arrived so I walked in to find Susan already cuddling on Daniel. What a beautiful picture my mind snapped as a "memory photo" !  After dinner, Kallie  FINALLY got up her horse nerve and had Naomi lead her around the yard and pasture on Sugar's back, Kallie loved it!! Too soon it was time for all the Brenners to pack up  and hit the road for the next part of their long trip back to California. I don't knwow when we will see each other again; I am sure it will be  too long from now, but I am so thankful for these precious friends and their children!  SAFE TRAVELS DEAR FRIENDS!!!
Earlier today anothe friend and her 4 daughters came by for   a visit but also for an "interview". Something at their  church  led to a challenge to ask someone how they came to invite another person to join their family, essentially  about adoption. The 10 year old daughter thought  of our family and wanted to interview us. She knew we had a large family and quite a few children who were adopted, but had not heard our "5 Loaves and 2  Fishes"  story. It was so fun to share our story with her and her mom and sisters! Lori, the mom,  had not heard all of our story either and she was thrilled at what all I had to share. She kept saying "WOW!!! THAT is a GOD THING! Nothing else!!" and she was so right!! I love being able  to share our story  and the bottom line, as I reinforced to these young girls is that we should never say "NO"  to God. He may say "NO"  to us, but we need to always be ready and willing to tell God "YES LORD!"  and let Him guide our steps, that we never know what all God has for us until we ask, but if we back off of something and spew all the human  excuses for why "a thing" is impossible or too hard, we may cheat ourselves out of a blessing God  has for us. I hope and pray  that God uses this time together to reinforce something or stir up something in that young girl, or her mom and little sisters. I am so aware of God's hand on us  over the years, and it is ONLY GOD who has brought us  to the place we are now. Had we said "NO GOD" at any point in our incredible life journey, our story would be so different, if not in visible , tangible  circumstance, in spiritual growth or maturing attitude. If we were to say "NO GOD" tomorrow, the awesome blessings of our  yesterdays  would  be little more than stale bread, and I have no desire to accumulate stale bread! I want , I crave, I desire,  and I am pursuing and  aiming for a John 10: 10  life...Life and MORE ABUNDANTLY!!! (more modern versions and translations say   "The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.  or   " LIFE TO THE FULL")  Isn't that what YOU want?
I am reading Lysa TerKeurst's book  "Made To Crave, satisfying your deepest desire with God, not food"  and this is a wonderful book!! I am not particularly struggling with food, but Lysa's point is that WHATEVER we crave above our craving for God needs adjusting. Her intro says "This book is dedicated  to you, my friend. While I don't know your name, God does. I believe He led you to pick up this book because He wants you to know  your issues with food are not a curse but a gateway through which He can touch  the rawest places of your heart and help you discover a deep satisfaction only He can give.  Go ahead and dare to believe that this time around things will be different!"  I am reading this book to let God root out what my "food"  cravings may be so that God can work in my life to cause me to want HIM ALONE  as what / WHO  I crave above all else!!!   (She is the Proverbs 31 Ministries Lysa TerKeurst, btw)
 My heart sings "  You are my King! In all I do, let me honor You!"

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Goat sitting. Really?

Yes I am. A woman  to whom I sold two does several weeks ago had just moved to our town and was not thinking about the commitment having dairy goats involves and totally forgot  that she had a trip planned out of town for her son's military graduation. WHAT TO DO WITH THE GOATS??? She called me to ask how messed up they would be if she left food and water but didn't milk them for 5 days, saying she was pretty sure that was a bad idea. I sensed her dilemma and offered to goat sit my former goats for her. Today she brought them back but was just thrilled at having them and spoke of how sweet they are and how glad she is that she got them. She'd asked me about bringing them back to breed in fall so I happily introduced her to Thor , our Future Stud Muffin. She and her younger sons were very pleased with him too. Yes, goat sitting. why not?
I saws the orthopedic doctor today who was pretty pleased with the state of my toe after we soaked off the old dressing to evaluate . I was pretty pleased with the suture job when I saw  it because Thursday night ,frankly my toe was a wreck. Today it's just red and held together with black sutures. (Photo upon request, decided not to post it with a disclaimer "Not for the Squeamish"  (wink!) Next week I will get the stitches out, have new X-rays and we'll see if the bone pieces are healing together  although he told me to expect that to be a very slow process. I stood on my foot TOO MUCH yesterday and by evening it was so swollen and sore. I really behaved myself today and I can truly feel the difference. Still restricted activity, and no swimming, certainly no mother- daughter shopping trips for  a while and no bowling. When Charlie and I took the kids bowling today, I decided that since I could not bowl, I could get busy on Riley's baby blanket. She is due to make her arrival in EIGHT WEEKS!!!!! Hard to be a very conscientious cheer leader when buried in intricate crochet instructions and counting stitches to keep the pattern perfect! It felt good to get  several inches and rounds completed.
We are praising God tonight for the fact that it is ONLY 82 degrees right now! We got a little bit of rain which cooled things down for a few hours and almost watered the gardens...almost. We still need about three solid weeks of slow steady rain to revive the parched pastures , yards, fields and gardens  but we will take what we are given. Tomorrow's temsp are due to be back over 100 again but for now I will happily open my porch door and let some fresh air in the house!!!
Don't you love  Natalie Grant's song, "Your Great Name"  I  love the music and I love the words! Listen alongwith the sound track as you read the lyrics below and be blessed as you worship!
Your Great Name

Lost are saved find their way

At the sound of Your great Name

All condemned feel no shame

At the sound of Your great Name

Ev'ry fear has no place

At the sound of Your great Name

The enemy he has to leave

At the sound of Your great Name

Chorus

Jesus worthy is the Lamb that was slain for us

The Son of God and man

You are high and lifted up

And all the world will praise

Your great Name
Verse 2

All the weak find their strength

At the sound of Your great Name

Hungry souls receive grace

At the sound of Your great Name

The fatherless find their rest

At the sound of Your great Name

The sick are healed the dead are raised

At the sound of Your great Name

Jesus worthy is the Lamb that was slain for us

The Son of God and man
You are high and lifted up
And all the world will praise
Your great Name
(BRIDGE 1)


Redeemer my Healer Lord Almighty
Defender my Savior You are my King